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* By Friday I was completely and utterly burned out. I hadn't been sleeping well, I had been super anxious and I was just a hot mess. I've been pushing myself so hard, I needed a break. How did I know this? Because I dreamt it of course! I had a dream I was taking tea with the Goddess (in a cluttered disorganized room) and She was basically like, you need to get your shit together. You need to organize *all* of your houses. Being so socially anxious all the time lately isn't you and all this clutter isn't helping.
* So I started getting my phsyical "house" (my body) situated - I started doing a little tanning late last week. I only do it for like 10 minutes every other day (and after my free week is up, it will be even less than that). I like not being quite so pasty and I like being immersed in full faux sunlight for 10 mins, it really is helping my winter blahs. I dyed my hair (a super cute cherry creme color), face masked, and body scrubbed with the scrub L. made me. I went to target and got new lipgloss, two nail polish pens (so I can now French myself ;p), and a new shirtdress for a total of $18. I felt so much better after all that!
* I took some me time this weekend hardcore - Pre-weekend, James took me to Evelyns for yummy kibbe and a cocktail and then home for a lifetime movie, Jow and I stayed in on Fri and ordered chinese from a new place (pork buns and yummy duck soup, nom!). I spent two hours on the phone with B., which was great, it was great to catch up and reconnect and hear how the wedding plans are coming. Superbonus: B & her mom are buying the bridesmaids gowns which is really awesome and one less thing I have to worry about financially. I had lunch with my mom which was good, took myself shopping, and then we went to D's birthday bash. She decided to kick it out old skool in new brunswick, so we had dinner at old man rafferty's and then drinks at old bay (they make a pretty decent hurricane, which was our main motivation!). Lots of talking and laughing and fucking around with the Truth or Dare ap. Sunday Jow and I cleaned the house and aired it out. We then went to dinner with his friends Sean and Jenny which was fun.
* Spinning! I just did my first acid dye batch. I made a *beautiful* purple color by mixing a red and a blue and I had the brilliant idea that doing it in a double boiler would be a good idea and it turns out, it was! It did not felt at all, yatta! Rinsing out however took about oh forever. I think to keep getting seed money for more spinning projects and to get seed money for beeswax candle making, I'm going to list my yarns on my old Etsy store and see if anything comes of that. L. got me in touch with one of her friends who is willing to send me a full cream Shetland fleece for a v. reasonable price. She also answered a lot of questions and told me that she would not be sending the less clean parts (tummy, rumpus, etc) and picking out debris. She also has angora rabbits and she's willing to sell the . . .fur? for a v. reasonable (though still expensive) price. I noticed on Etsy *no one* is selling a full 4 oz skein of angora only yarn. I wonder if there's a market for it? I will prolly do one skein when I get some seed money together for it. Jow spins well, but he's not as into it as I am. He's interested in the idea of washing and carding. I saw a couple inexpensive hand carders on Etsy. (Spinning pals, do you have any recommendations for carders?) I'm less interested in washing and carding, so it may be a good plan.
* I also need to calm my ass down about writing. As per my dream, I am not to give it away anymore which can be interpreted a whole lot of ways. I'm chosing to see it as (a) I don't write for free anymore and (b) I'm not going to bust my ass on getting (3) stories together for a low paying anthology. I'll write one (well hopefully ;p) and kick it over to JohnM for editing and then just send it out. I'm much better served focusing on an upcoming anthology that is higher paying.
* Since dreaming, I have been way less socially anxious and I've felt much better about myself!
* So I started getting my phsyical "house" (my body) situated - I started doing a little tanning late last week. I only do it for like 10 minutes every other day (and after my free week is up, it will be even less than that). I like not being quite so pasty and I like being immersed in full faux sunlight for 10 mins, it really is helping my winter blahs. I dyed my hair (a super cute cherry creme color), face masked, and body scrubbed with the scrub L. made me. I went to target and got new lipgloss, two nail polish pens (so I can now French myself ;p), and a new shirtdress for a total of $18. I felt so much better after all that!
* I took some me time this weekend hardcore - Pre-weekend, James took me to Evelyns for yummy kibbe and a cocktail and then home for a lifetime movie, Jow and I stayed in on Fri and ordered chinese from a new place (pork buns and yummy duck soup, nom!). I spent two hours on the phone with B., which was great, it was great to catch up and reconnect and hear how the wedding plans are coming. Superbonus: B & her mom are buying the bridesmaids gowns which is really awesome and one less thing I have to worry about financially. I had lunch with my mom which was good, took myself shopping, and then we went to D's birthday bash. She decided to kick it out old skool in new brunswick, so we had dinner at old man rafferty's and then drinks at old bay (they make a pretty decent hurricane, which was our main motivation!). Lots of talking and laughing and fucking around with the Truth or Dare ap. Sunday Jow and I cleaned the house and aired it out. We then went to dinner with his friends Sean and Jenny which was fun.
* Spinning! I just did my first acid dye batch. I made a *beautiful* purple color by mixing a red and a blue and I had the brilliant idea that doing it in a double boiler would be a good idea and it turns out, it was! It did not felt at all, yatta! Rinsing out however took about oh forever. I think to keep getting seed money for more spinning projects and to get seed money for beeswax candle making, I'm going to list my yarns on my old Etsy store and see if anything comes of that. L. got me in touch with one of her friends who is willing to send me a full cream Shetland fleece for a v. reasonable price. She also answered a lot of questions and told me that she would not be sending the less clean parts (tummy, rumpus, etc) and picking out debris. She also has angora rabbits and she's willing to sell the . . .fur? for a v. reasonable (though still expensive) price. I noticed on Etsy *no one* is selling a full 4 oz skein of angora only yarn. I wonder if there's a market for it? I will prolly do one skein when I get some seed money together for it. Jow spins well, but he's not as into it as I am. He's interested in the idea of washing and carding. I saw a couple inexpensive hand carders on Etsy. (Spinning pals, do you have any recommendations for carders?) I'm less interested in washing and carding, so it may be a good plan.
* I also need to calm my ass down about writing. As per my dream, I am not to give it away anymore which can be interpreted a whole lot of ways. I'm chosing to see it as (a) I don't write for free anymore and (b) I'm not going to bust my ass on getting (3) stories together for a low paying anthology. I'll write one (well hopefully ;p) and kick it over to JohnM for editing and then just send it out. I'm much better served focusing on an upcoming anthology that is higher paying.
* Since dreaming, I have been way less socially anxious and I've felt much better about myself!
