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[corvaxgirl]

I've been working so hard on CoC. This is like the third rewrite, which I know is supposed to be fairly standard in the industry and I'm working on getting better focused on the relationship between the hero and the herione (. . .which I know should sounds like a "duh" statement, but there's usually a lot of other things that go into a romantica - world building, friendships, sometimes a mystery plot, etc, etc) and . . . .I'm just having a total diva moment (which some of you can relate to, I know) in which I feel completely insecure about this story and all of my writing.

What if I never get anything published ever again? What if all of these years of dreaming of being a writer are for nothing? What if I'm just not very good? What if I've been writing and rewriting this story for nothing? What if I get rejected from every place I write for this year? This is where being spoiled becomes a problem. For a double trout like myself, I have a fairly good acceptance rate. But I worry that maybe it was just beginners' luck.

Insecure. Blah. Insecure. Blah.