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Dear, I fear/ we're facing a problem . . .
Oct. 1st, 2010 02:38 pmSo, I cornered my boss on the whole soooooo what's going on with the company? And she said that unless something changes (i.e. we make a placement), we will be closing our doors on Dec. 15th.
I have a lot of mixed emotions about this, I thought I'd be at this job for another five years and have already been here for five. I feel vomity because this is a *huge* change, but also kind of excited you know? Because it means I can write from home. But I'm massively afraid too because security is totally the whore in me.
Also I liked having writing as a second income stream, I'm nervous for it to be a primary income stream. I perused Craig's List though and there are all sorts of v. part time jobs that I could get to help my income streams. I put together what's really needed to get Trevia started, I have yarn that can be sold.
Logically, I know everything's going to be okay. I'm industrious and have already applied for like six jobs that I could work right now. But I also really want to take some time off and really work on some writing and crafting and house stuff (and gym stuff) so I need to be careful about what I'm looking at. I could also work the Christmas season if I really wanted to/needed to though again, the writing pays better.
It's just really, really weird thinking that I could be making a living writing. Not writing a lot of super exciting things per se, but writing. And working from home. I think I'll only take six weeks "off" before really starting that, it will be around the holidays anyway. I keep thinking there must be some kind of trick, this is too much what I would like.
I hope she gives me severence. I feel like I deserve it (not to sound entitled), I've been here through thick and thin and I'm going to stick it out til the end. Anyway, that would traditionally be around bonus time for me anyway.
I know also I could really use this time now to bust my ass and work really, really hard to get things squared away. I'm going to try to do that.
But still, the pervasive feeling is: vomit.
I have a lot of mixed emotions about this, I thought I'd be at this job for another five years and have already been here for five. I feel vomity because this is a *huge* change, but also kind of excited you know? Because it means I can write from home. But I'm massively afraid too because security is totally the whore in me.
Also I liked having writing as a second income stream, I'm nervous for it to be a primary income stream. I perused Craig's List though and there are all sorts of v. part time jobs that I could get to help my income streams. I put together what's really needed to get Trevia started, I have yarn that can be sold.
Logically, I know everything's going to be okay. I'm industrious and have already applied for like six jobs that I could work right now. But I also really want to take some time off and really work on some writing and crafting and house stuff (and gym stuff) so I need to be careful about what I'm looking at. I could also work the Christmas season if I really wanted to/needed to though again, the writing pays better.
It's just really, really weird thinking that I could be making a living writing. Not writing a lot of super exciting things per se, but writing. And working from home. I think I'll only take six weeks "off" before really starting that, it will be around the holidays anyway. I keep thinking there must be some kind of trick, this is too much what I would like.
I hope she gives me severence. I feel like I deserve it (not to sound entitled), I've been here through thick and thin and I'm going to stick it out til the end. Anyway, that would traditionally be around bonus time for me anyway.
I know also I could really use this time now to bust my ass and work really, really hard to get things squared away. I'm going to try to do that.
But still, the pervasive feeling is: vomit.
