Writer's Block: Kids or child-free?

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I love kids, but I also love giving them back. I am currently childfree by choice. My alarm has barely gone off, tbh. I don't know that I can be unselfish enough to parent and I've spent a very long time building a life for myself that I'm sort of loathe to give it up after I got it to where I wanted. Other concerns: how fibromyalgia will affect my ability to parent, needing a bigger place once the kid is like 8, not having the money to financially support a child, etc. I'm excited for my sister to have babies eventually. I want to be a v. involved aunt.

I decided this on my own and have been in relationships where my partners felt/feel roughly the same as me. None of us are exactly militant about the CF thing, just not our thing.

[NfaSIR] and I don't need to run around/ I can just stay home/ and sing this little love song

* I am currently annoyed with my sister. I don't like how she's becoming one of those chicks who needs to ask her bf permission to pee practically (and in a totally non D/s way, readers) which is aggreviating, more aggreviating: her bf trying to put his dick in my kool aid in "helping" us to plan our trip to KC even though (a) I didn't fucking ask and (b) he's not a financially contributing member of this trip at this time, most aggreviating: I now lost the fucking flight because she had to hem and haw and run this trip by him (in which I needed to EMAIL HIM OUR TRIP). Just . . . grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. Haaaaaaaaaate.

* I've been trying to get more active. Walked on Monday, food shopped yesterday (which takes the wind out of my fibro sails), walking today with April. I want to do less snacking at night. I'm also going to the farmer's market with april today and the first rita's ice of the year.

* I am not going to make my March 15th deadline for one of my anthologies. I was trying so very hard to hit it, but here's the thing. All the "lower paying" but not "terrible paying" short stories in my genre seem to be done by this one editor. I sent one story to her that retrospectively, needed a lot of work. I have since worked on it and am pleased with its current incarnation and would send it over hill and dale. If I rush a story through and rush it through beta/JohnM then she's had two pieces by me that aren't the best they could be and that could potentially result in blackballing by her (i.e. she may stop reading my work that she receives). I don't want this to happen so I'm taking a step back. I have two really good story ideas that I've hammered out a little and I have a third marninating in my brain.

* I have been told I need to calm my ass down by shardkin. I need a week off of writing and ideally leaving work at a decent time to just rest and recharge. I could do some crafting, some house work, reading, trash telly. Just relaxing. I've been grinding at full tilt since . . .right after xmas. And I'm def starting to burn out from it.

* Yesterday I made beef stock and spinach hummus. Sesame crusted tuna for dinner!

* I'm debating getting french manicure guides, just to make mine neater and less nail polish remover intense.